wish list

Its 2012, did you know? Apparently I forgot as the new year slipped by to make those resolutions that we all make in foolhardy moments liquored up with champagne or what ever your favourite bevvie may be.


So here I go..resolutions wish list 2012, naughty AND nice..in no particular order..oh I'm a such a girl of lists.


1. Help hub get well and back to work.


2. Stop sweating the small stuff (there's far too much big stuff going on).


3. Enjoy the Journey..make the journey and sieze the day


4.  Lose some weight (a start made on this one)


5. Get back to exercise


6. Dance in the Rain


here's where the wish list starts...


7. Find a community of like minded people


8. Explore a D/s relationship with a Dom/me..(I am dying inside with this need unfulfilled).


9. I want to find a Munch or a play party. I want to experience it all.


10. Local friend in the lifestyle..where might they be.

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acceptance

A mentor, the delicious little whore is considering such. Maybe the next step. To learn, to be guided.

I went back and did some reading..in fact I read my whole blog...I write about sex frequently don't I? Apologies for the gratuitous sex posts - just inspired I guess.

The posts have been good for me. They have reminded me just how far my journey has come and that my husband has travelled the road with me to a certain extent. I had not realised just how much.

Beckmann - Siesta

I have been cradling him  over the last little while. He is not in the same place he was earlier in what appeared to become 'our' journey. I must care for him. He will return to himself but right now he is not. I am accepting that he is not who I need him to be and will likely never be that man. I love him and my acceptance of his place in fulfilling my needs has made me calm (at least for now...I change a lot!)

the compliment

The nicest thing my hub has ever said to me.

me: Do you think I am a kinky bitch?

Him: No, you just know what you want.

In just a few words he voiced his acceptance of me and normalised all my deep, kinky and twisted desires and I loved him for it!



joseph sudek - the enchanting garden 1955