desperate and dateless

arrrgh!
I'm bolshy at work, I'm irritated at home.
I'm all over the blinking place.


I am wanting.
I am needing.
I am craving.
I am soooo bloody tired of waiting..grrr...lol!


Hot and need cooling.
Squirmy and need to play, to experience anything.

Does it make any sense that I am envious of people I see and read only in blogs?
Is it wrong of me to need a play partner? One who can really take control? Someone not my husband? Someone experienced and someone who identifies as Dom?

P is not that man...oh how he is not that man. I wish he was.


I need someone now!!!


LOL, you might think I sound a little desperate right now! and you'd be right..any takers for taking control of the willing slut? ...apply within. Please address the essential criteria :)

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disillusion

Losing the faith,


Helmut Newton

drifting away,

cut loose,

disengaging,

disengaged,

floating,

drowning,

deeper water,

up and over the waves,

drifting,
melancholy,
separating,
fingers parting,
sliding free,
pushing futile,
wishing,
disappointment,
stale,
dying on the fringe of summer.

As I draw to the end of my list...I want to curl into myself and sleep. Forget the day's disappointment and hope for a better tomorrow. On a roller coaster, Daddy, Husband, two men at my centre and yet neither help me be who I really am.

Something always missing, longing when I am alone.

Tonight I feel my sexuality fading, choking, dulled under male hands.

Sleep...tomorrow it will not seem so bleak..LOL...things always look better in the morning.